Showing posts with label poc in fantasy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poc in fantasy. Show all posts

Monday, November 10, 2014

Nanowrimo Week 2: The Story and the Word Count

 I've wrote almost 13,000 words in seven days.
But in week 2, I wrote nearly nothing.
Of course, life gets in our way. This time, I think I got in my own way. I wrote myself a cryptic note and I couldn't figure it out. I spent most of the week staring at "Write biker scene before dress scene". Here's a hint as to why that's confusing: my whole book is about bikers.

Eventually I gave up and wrote another scene which I like and which was true to the story. Maybe I'll remember what that scene was during editing. That's clarity I wish I had earlier this week. I was speaking with my friend Dyane Forde at some point about being a perfectionist. We both admit to this. 

I mentioned how I know that, in terms of speed and progress, editing is something best done when the draft is complete. For me, though, it's just impossible to press forward if I think something is badly written. I feel like everything following is also badly written or, if what follows is better written, the badly written work is still staining it. It's a lot like shitting your pants and trying to continue as if nothing happened. You just have to go home and clean up.



This book is short. I think I can still finish in the next 2 weeks. I hope that because it's short, this will be my only stumble. Now I face a different problem. Finish the story in time. 

I originally plotted the book into Year One and Year Two. And things seemed to be going great. But now, there seems to be so much missing. I mean exactly that, missing. The more I write, the more I feel like these pieces should be there. I'm actually surprised at how much I've written and what I've written. My main character is becoming ruthless and very violent. Every page I write is a surprise for me right now. 
  
I'm at the middle of the book, leading up the climax of the story. This is the part that's always most difficult for me. I am good at world building, introducing characters and getting them into trouble. I also feel like I'm even good at endings. But the middle, the pacing is the most terrifying and the most difficult. Quite frankly, I'm scared.

Added to the challenge is I want to see if I can STILL finish by the 22nd. Right before thanksgiving. And I would LOVE to spend the holiday editing. So, let's see how this week goes. See y'all sunday!



Sunday, October 19, 2014

Trimming the Fat: On Revising

The best rejection letter I got so far showed (extreme) interest in a rewrite. I am honored. It also mentioned that I might be tired of my story. My immediate response was that I wasn't. I love my book and I feel like it's a necessary story. But to be perfectly honest...

I wasn't sure.

I am primary interested in writing Science Fiction, but I love reading fantasy--and there aren't many fantasy books on the market that I want to read. Like Toni Morrison says: 

I'm 25, I have a decades long career ahead of me.
Even after I'm signed, there will be more revisions.
Then I'll get an editor and I'll have to make more revisions. Then I'll move on to another project and do this whole thing again. So I know there is no point in being tired of my book--not if I love it. 
 
However, maybe I'm actually tired of how much I love my book.


I kept saying "I know the book needs work," but maybe I didn't actually believe it. Because I couldn't pinpoint the issues and I sent it out. And the agent in question gave excellent feedback that left me wondering how I missed it all. Long story short: I'm a good writer and perhaps I write too much. So I need to skim my book down--streamline it. Trim the fat. 
 
And while I think it should be easy: 


My experience is more like this:
Me                 Manuscript

I'm trying to be objective. Kill who needs to die. Cut out the scenes that don't further the story. It is difficult but a needed skill.  I procrastinate (Clearly, I'm blogging).

The worst part about it, probably, is that I think I'm really close. I've said in previous posts that this is the nicest and most empowering experience I've had querying. And I'm grateful for the kind rejections but they're still rejections. They're the sort of rejections that remind me how close I truly am. So close....so, so close. It's almost painful.





Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Query Hell: The Brown Girl in the Ring.

I finished my novel in May. I got it back from Beta readers in June. Now August has arrived and I am querying.




My goal is to query 100 agents. Previously, I've queried very narrowly and I am seriously lucky that I got any bites at all. This time, I feel completely different about my project. I'm not hung up on having it make me JK Rowling $$$ or fame. I'm not obsessed with getting the agent who reps my favorite authors.

I just want an agent who will love my book for what it is. That means

  1. No white washing my characters
  2. No ironing out my characters to make them straight
  3. No genre/age changing. (I'm best suited to write about adults with adult readers in mind)
It dawned on me that I could land the agent who I know represents a writer I love and they could hate my book and by hate I mean try to change the things that make my story my own. Releasing my expectations has really made the process easier. Another thing that has made this easier is moving on.

While my Beta readers had the book, I outlined another book. Now that I'm waiting to hear back from agents, I have something to do: write.


Oddly enough, my biggest fears about getting picked up is that I won't, simply because marketing a gay black female character is just too much. Especially when her story doesn't revolve around her sexuality. Isn't it funny that dragons and elves and warlocks can exist in a world but brown dykes can't? 

I'm up to 31 agents. Thankfully, there are some excellent agents clearly seeking diversity. I look forward to hearing from them. 


Saturday, April 12, 2014

The End: It's Okay Not to Celebrate

I recently finished my book

 
(But for real though)

It was 500 pages, 112 plus words of love, created and scrivener and sent off to my awesome beta readers. My friends were hype and I appreciate their unwavering support. But I wasn't excited. 

I worked on the book for six months straight, outline to edits. I woke up and wrote. I went to work. I came home and wrote. I went to sleep and woke up and wrote. If I wasn't writing, I was taking notes, making sketches, thinking about it, dreaming about it. For five months my novel consumed my free time. Then I finished it. 

You know? 

When I created a PDF of the project, I was stuck between sadness and awe. But I wasn't happy and I wasn't excited. I felt lost and empty.

 
(Not exaggerating)

To put this in perspective--I have a life. 

I have a girlfriend, I have friends, I did other things when I wasn't writing (occasionally) and I also have other hobbies. But my book brought me unthinkable joy. It was the first Epic Fantasy I'd ever written (I used to be big on Urban Fantasy) and I learned so much about myself while I was writing it.

I learned I LOVE world building. It's like a drug. I learned I love long stories. I learned I have an impressive imagination. And I learned just how thirsty I was for some QPOC in a "traditional" fantasy story. 

Y'all, this experience was REAL.

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(I might've seen Jebus)
And then it was over. 

I've never felt like this when finishing a book. I'm usually excited to start querying. (And I still am). But a part of me was a little sad the ride was over. A part of me was ready to start outlining my next book. I made myself go out and have a drink. But I didn't really want to. I wanted to wrap myself back in writing. I wanted to make sure I was "busy". Querying is hard. It's scary. It is LAME. and for me querying is a sign that things are really done. I've done all I can and it's time to send things out into the world. It's kinda like when Wilson left Chuck because he realized he didn't need him anymore. He was returning to civilization.
 
(No shade, though. ( -_') )

And so there this novel was, teaching me another thing about myself that I didn't know. I really love writing. 

That sounds silly. 

But I think prior to this I was writing with the goal of getting published. I may have written this last novel just because I enjoyed writing it. I think that showed. And when I was done, I missed the world and the characters and the excitement of build up. I wanted it again, so I began another book. But the end of the novel wasn't a milestone for me. Finishing the novel wasn't a great accomplishment. It marked the end of a happy thing.

I don't know y'all. I might have attachment issues.



Sunday, February 9, 2014

Breaking the Walls: The Importance of Black Speculative Fiction Authors and the POC Characters Only They Can write




I’m going to start this article with a series of confessions.
1.     I identify as a nerd.
2.     I have never read Lord of the Rings, A Game of Thrones or Harry Potter.
3.     I don’t intend to read them.
4.     I don’t think you have to read LOTR to understand how to write a good Fantasy story.
 Yes. I. Did.

Why am I making these confessions? There seems to be this idea that those books, among others, embody the essential goodness of the genre. I sincerely love Fantasy but I have no interest in these books. They’re great reads and their authors have incredible imaginations. They have definitely opened doors for unexpected heroes, sex and love among dragons and series that grow with readers. But at the end of the day, no mater how much I respect and admire them as fiction, those books were not written for me.
And, as a little black girl hungry for everything from Pokemon to Xena to Dragonheart, I was always left empty and feeling forgotten.  I didn’t understand why Kendra Young’s brief stint on Buffy excited me so much. And later, I didn’t know why The Haitian on Heroes upset me so much.
Black people in Sci-Fi/Fantasy are rare. We are unicorns. I know you can name quite a few, Uhura on Star Trek (who was basically a black secretary), Abe Ellis and Aiden Ford from Stargate Atlantis, Zoe Washburne from Firefly—I’m sure you can name a person for all your fingers and toes. But the number is low—and never will the list of Black protagonists equal the list White protagonists. It just doesn’t happen. And why is that?
 
Even his visor couldn't help him see diversity.
Because we value straight hair and pale skin and light eyes, white is the default race. And in that way, among many, we are still living in a racist society. If you Google Image search “Pretty Women” or “Beautiful Women”, your results are going to yield you women with all these aforementioned qualities. If you see a Black woman, it is going to be Halle Berry. And these women are beautiful, no doubt, but they are dominating the idea of beautiful and the idea of normal.
As I said before, I love Fantasy but I don’t love it because of Elves and Knights and Damsels in Distress. And maybe, when you think about it, neither do you. I love Fantasy for the heroes who overcome incredible odds, for the creatures good and evil, for the weird worlds that people have explored. I love Fantasy because the genre allows for absolutely any outcome and possibility. Anything you can think of can happen in a Fantasy book. Why, then, is it so impossible to find a Black Main Character? Consider this: How deeply would your favorite Fantasy book change if the MC were four shades darker? The answer should be “not at all”.
My last confession is that my Blackness means a lot to me. I held myself responsible for representing Black History Month in my all-white high school, I was an activist on my college campus and even now, as I write, I make it a point to create Black Characters. Even with this being true, however, I don’t think every story with a Black MC has to center around that person’s race. In fact, we would do a better job of normalizing Blackness if that wasn’t the case.
 POC in Fantasy - this could be us but y'all playin'

I mean, re-imagine Lee Jordan (the Quidditch Sports Commentator in Harry Potter) and Padma and Parvati at his side instead of the iconic Harry, Ron and Hermione trio. They can keep their personalities, specialties and histories BUT they would look different. The story itself has not changed. It has all that awesome magical deliciousness but also appeals to the little brown children out in the world (just like I was and so many of my friends were), who wish they could find more book characters who looked like them, characters who were not co-stars or supporting roles.
I’m aware some things WILL have to change, because the Black experience is nothing without a little mention of prejudice, injustice or some sort of discomfort caused by race relations in the world. But that injustice doesn’t have to be the main plot point.
 No one is going to write a Black MC like BlackAuthors. If we don’t write these stories, black literature will fall into two categories: Literary Fiction and Hood Fiction. I will admit, I can’t stand “Hood Fiction”. Maybe I despise the truth it brings to light—that we have brothers and sisters whose day jobs revolve around drug dealing, prostitution and dysfunctional relationships. LA Banks managed to combine Urban Fantasy and Hood Lit in a way that wouldn’t infuriate me if someone found the book 200 years from now and tried to use it as a tool to understand today’s “Black Culture”. Yes, the dialogue was littered with unbelievable slang and the MCs were a Spoken Word Poetry group—but the main protagonist was also a Vampire Hunter. Despite how I may feel about the final project, Sister Banks broke down a genre wall. 

 
Octavia Butler’s MC from Fledgling is Shori, an eleven year old Black girl who falls in love with a 20-something White man in segregated US History. But Shori is a Vampire. Suddenly, what was almost Literary Fiction is Science Fiction. The wall is broken.
If Speculative Fiction is about daring to dream up a world where anything can happen, writing Speculative Fiction with Black narratives means you are daring to dream up a world where no one is surprised or disgusted that a book character is Black, because White will no longer be our default race. And now is the time; people are ready to geek out. Fantasy and Sci-fi themed shows dominate the television and these sorts of books are flying off the shelves. Black Authors can help normalize the Black Main Character. We need to break down the walls.
Don’t worry. I can assure you no one will stop writing White MCs in your absence.