Monday, November 10, 2014

Nanowrimo Week 2: The Story and the Word Count

 I've wrote almost 13,000 words in seven days.
But in week 2, I wrote nearly nothing.
Of course, life gets in our way. This time, I think I got in my own way. I wrote myself a cryptic note and I couldn't figure it out. I spent most of the week staring at "Write biker scene before dress scene". Here's a hint as to why that's confusing: my whole book is about bikers.

Eventually I gave up and wrote another scene which I like and which was true to the story. Maybe I'll remember what that scene was during editing. That's clarity I wish I had earlier this week. I was speaking with my friend Dyane Forde at some point about being a perfectionist. We both admit to this. 

I mentioned how I know that, in terms of speed and progress, editing is something best done when the draft is complete. For me, though, it's just impossible to press forward if I think something is badly written. I feel like everything following is also badly written or, if what follows is better written, the badly written work is still staining it. It's a lot like shitting your pants and trying to continue as if nothing happened. You just have to go home and clean up.



This book is short. I think I can still finish in the next 2 weeks. I hope that because it's short, this will be my only stumble. Now I face a different problem. Finish the story in time. 

I originally plotted the book into Year One and Year Two. And things seemed to be going great. But now, there seems to be so much missing. I mean exactly that, missing. The more I write, the more I feel like these pieces should be there. I'm actually surprised at how much I've written and what I've written. My main character is becoming ruthless and very violent. Every page I write is a surprise for me right now. 
  
I'm at the middle of the book, leading up the climax of the story. This is the part that's always most difficult for me. I am good at world building, introducing characters and getting them into trouble. I also feel like I'm even good at endings. But the middle, the pacing is the most terrifying and the most difficult. Quite frankly, I'm scared.

Added to the challenge is I want to see if I can STILL finish by the 22nd. Right before thanksgiving. And I would LOVE to spend the holiday editing. So, let's see how this week goes. See y'all sunday!



Saturday, November 1, 2014

Nanowrimo: Week 1, Scrivener and 23k

Day 1 of NanoWriMo is upon us and I'm 23k words in.

No, I didn't write them today. I wrote those words nearly 6 months ago. I'm doing NanoWrimo with a project that has already been started. I used to feel like this was cheating. NanoWriMo is about beginning and finishing an MS in 30 days. But it dawned on me this year (my fourth year trying to do it), that finishing a story isn't the only way to win. Reaching 50k is the easiest and perhaps most popular way of doing it.

Besides, 50k might not even be a whole story for genre writers like myself. My current WIP is Sci-Fi (/ ugh, dystopian, maybe?) and I think it will run about 70-80k. So this headstart will help me reach 2 ways of winning, reaching 50k and actually completing the story I want to tell.

I've never won NanoWriMo before but I really intend to this year. I feel like I've been able to address my common problems so that while writing a novel (especially one that involves world building) can often be like this:




I'm hoping this year, I'll have an experience more like this:
Writing like a Got-Damn Disney Princess

  1. World Building
    1. Only this past year have I successfully created a well developed world and characters for a story to grow. This took me 5 months for a High Fantasy story--Like I said, I'm not really a high fantasy writer. I found it much easier to create a sci-fi environment
  2. Outlining/Plot
    1. I can't talk about Scrivener enough. Without it, I wouldn't have been able to write my novel. I wrote 113k words in 5 months. I'm sure I can do 50k in thirty days as long as I have my precious, precious software. I've never been good at outlining but Scrivener makes it incredibly easy.
  3. Pacing/Momentum
    1. I'm usually very enthusiastic about things from day 1 to like day 14. But the middle of the novel is hard and worse than hard, its daunting. It's the point where you feel like you don't want to keep writing. Like your story is shit. Like the world might as well just end now cus you're an idiot who never should've picked up a pen (or downloaded Scrivener). However, I just read Stephen King's "On Writing" and I've also learned so much about perserverance throughout the past couple of years. I'll probably do another blog post on this but basically "You can always edit if you have something written. But if you don't write, you can't edit." So breeze through the middle--fuck it, put in shit you know you won't ever keep. Whatever gets you to the next scene. Just keep putting one word after another.
  4. Dependence
    1. Writing, "they" say, is a solitary art. But I'm a social person. Hearing other people's ideas or even the sound of them typing, turns me on (in a way. No lawsuits please). In the past, I've never gone to the write-ins or bothered with writing buddies. But this year I'm going to go the extra mile to really experience this amazing event. I've already completely filled out my profile, complete with picture and even an excerpt.
So those are my four issues and what I am hoping are their solutions. I feel good. But then again, it IS only week one.








Sunday, October 19, 2014

Trimming the Fat: On Revising

The best rejection letter I got so far showed (extreme) interest in a rewrite. I am honored. It also mentioned that I might be tired of my story. My immediate response was that I wasn't. I love my book and I feel like it's a necessary story. But to be perfectly honest...

I wasn't sure.

I am primary interested in writing Science Fiction, but I love reading fantasy--and there aren't many fantasy books on the market that I want to read. Like Toni Morrison says: 

I'm 25, I have a decades long career ahead of me.
Even after I'm signed, there will be more revisions.
Then I'll get an editor and I'll have to make more revisions. Then I'll move on to another project and do this whole thing again. So I know there is no point in being tired of my book--not if I love it. 
 
However, maybe I'm actually tired of how much I love my book.


I kept saying "I know the book needs work," but maybe I didn't actually believe it. Because I couldn't pinpoint the issues and I sent it out. And the agent in question gave excellent feedback that left me wondering how I missed it all. Long story short: I'm a good writer and perhaps I write too much. So I need to skim my book down--streamline it. Trim the fat. 
 
And while I think it should be easy: 


My experience is more like this:
Me                 Manuscript

I'm trying to be objective. Kill who needs to die. Cut out the scenes that don't further the story. It is difficult but a needed skill.  I procrastinate (Clearly, I'm blogging).

The worst part about it, probably, is that I think I'm really close. I've said in previous posts that this is the nicest and most empowering experience I've had querying. And I'm grateful for the kind rejections but they're still rejections. They're the sort of rejections that remind me how close I truly am. So close....so, so close. It's almost painful.





Sunday, September 14, 2014

Dealing with Rejection: The Bey Way

In the past, I've cried over a query letter. And I'm not being dramatic. I've been heartbroken over the rejection. It is exhausting to hear agent after agent tell you that your project is not right for them. It's rough because it's an informal form letter that reeks with politeness. Phrases like "Keep going" and "the business is purely subjective" are meant to comfort but they can be infuriating. Once, an agent asked for my full book, only to refuse me. Another agent said she'd be interested in a re-write but ended up disinterested. This is not unusual but its not easy. At the end of the day I found myself sitting in front of my computer, sick and tired like: 


Twice now, I have completely stopped in my tracks while looking for an agent. This time around, I'm at 40 queries and I don't know how many rejections. And I don't care! Rejections are a part of life. It doesn't mean I stop. It means I keep going. If an agent passes on my book--it's okay because I didn't want that agent. 

Another thing that has helped, are two quotes from other writers I admire. The first is Octavia Butler who said "Getting a rejection slip was like being told your child is ugly. You got mad and didn't believe a word of it. Besides, look at all the really ugly literary children out there in the world being published and doing fine!" (Furor Scribendi). Right on, Mother Butler!

Sometimes, I'm really sad about books I don't like making it to the top of charts and I feel like I can't even get an agent to look my way. Jealousy is normal, I get over it but in the moment I need attention. The thirst is real. I reek of desperation.

Neil Gaiman also has inspiring words from his Blog entry titled "On Writing": "The best reaction to a rejection slip is a sort of wild-eyed madness, an evil grin, and sitting yourself in front of the keyboard muttering "Okay, you bastards. Try rejecting this!" and then writing something so unbelievably brilliant that all other writers will disembowel themselves with their pens upon reading it, because there's nothing left to write." In other words, werk!:


 This past year, as I've already spoken about in Elixher Magazine, I've really dedicated myself to the craft. Two of my short stories have been picked up for publication, I do my best to keep this blog updated. I went to AWP, I'm attending Writer's Work conference this week and I just signed up for Stuyvesant Writer's Workshop. I've even done a couple of interviews. All so when an agent does approach me I'll have something to show for myself. 

 Currently, three agents have my manuscript. 

Querying this round has officially gone better than any other attempts. I've reached a peace of mind that makes me feel like even if my book doesn't get picked up, I'll have really accomplished something impressive with all my hard work. I've become a better writer. I've become a stronger person with a thicker skin. Of course, I still want my book deal. Because I worked hard. And I won't promise that I won't absolutely go nuts if an agent does want me. 

The struggle has been real and I have been on this struggle bus for years, in this street, hard in the paint. I'll be done with the tears. I might even buy myself a tiara.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Query Hell: The Brown Girl in the Ring.

I finished my novel in May. I got it back from Beta readers in June. Now August has arrived and I am querying.




My goal is to query 100 agents. Previously, I've queried very narrowly and I am seriously lucky that I got any bites at all. This time, I feel completely different about my project. I'm not hung up on having it make me JK Rowling $$$ or fame. I'm not obsessed with getting the agent who reps my favorite authors.

I just want an agent who will love my book for what it is. That means

  1. No white washing my characters
  2. No ironing out my characters to make them straight
  3. No genre/age changing. (I'm best suited to write about adults with adult readers in mind)
It dawned on me that I could land the agent who I know represents a writer I love and they could hate my book and by hate I mean try to change the things that make my story my own. Releasing my expectations has really made the process easier. Another thing that has made this easier is moving on.

While my Beta readers had the book, I outlined another book. Now that I'm waiting to hear back from agents, I have something to do: write.


Oddly enough, my biggest fears about getting picked up is that I won't, simply because marketing a gay black female character is just too much. Especially when her story doesn't revolve around her sexuality. Isn't it funny that dragons and elves and warlocks can exist in a world but brown dykes can't? 

I'm up to 31 agents. Thankfully, there are some excellent agents clearly seeking diversity. I look forward to hearing from them. 


Saturday, April 12, 2014

The End: It's Okay Not to Celebrate

I recently finished my book

 
(But for real though)

It was 500 pages, 112 plus words of love, created and scrivener and sent off to my awesome beta readers. My friends were hype and I appreciate their unwavering support. But I wasn't excited. 

I worked on the book for six months straight, outline to edits. I woke up and wrote. I went to work. I came home and wrote. I went to sleep and woke up and wrote. If I wasn't writing, I was taking notes, making sketches, thinking about it, dreaming about it. For five months my novel consumed my free time. Then I finished it. 

You know? 

When I created a PDF of the project, I was stuck between sadness and awe. But I wasn't happy and I wasn't excited. I felt lost and empty.

 
(Not exaggerating)

To put this in perspective--I have a life. 

I have a girlfriend, I have friends, I did other things when I wasn't writing (occasionally) and I also have other hobbies. But my book brought me unthinkable joy. It was the first Epic Fantasy I'd ever written (I used to be big on Urban Fantasy) and I learned so much about myself while I was writing it.

I learned I LOVE world building. It's like a drug. I learned I love long stories. I learned I have an impressive imagination. And I learned just how thirsty I was for some QPOC in a "traditional" fantasy story. 

Y'all, this experience was REAL.

http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-PdxOuuDwll8/TigqoBvASZI/AAAAAAAABj0/3ExxDLQJ1AM/s1600/praise.jpg 
(I might've seen Jebus)
And then it was over. 

I've never felt like this when finishing a book. I'm usually excited to start querying. (And I still am). But a part of me was a little sad the ride was over. A part of me was ready to start outlining my next book. I made myself go out and have a drink. But I didn't really want to. I wanted to wrap myself back in writing. I wanted to make sure I was "busy". Querying is hard. It's scary. It is LAME. and for me querying is a sign that things are really done. I've done all I can and it's time to send things out into the world. It's kinda like when Wilson left Chuck because he realized he didn't need him anymore. He was returning to civilization.
 
(No shade, though. ( -_') )

And so there this novel was, teaching me another thing about myself that I didn't know. I really love writing. 

That sounds silly. 

But I think prior to this I was writing with the goal of getting published. I may have written this last novel just because I enjoyed writing it. I think that showed. And when I was done, I missed the world and the characters and the excitement of build up. I wanted it again, so I began another book. But the end of the novel wasn't a milestone for me. Finishing the novel wasn't a great accomplishment. It marked the end of a happy thing.

I don't know y'all. I might have attachment issues.



Sunday, February 9, 2014

Breaking the Walls: The Importance of Black Speculative Fiction Authors and the POC Characters Only They Can write




I’m going to start this article with a series of confessions.
1.     I identify as a nerd.
2.     I have never read Lord of the Rings, A Game of Thrones or Harry Potter.
3.     I don’t intend to read them.
4.     I don’t think you have to read LOTR to understand how to write a good Fantasy story.
 Yes. I. Did.

Why am I making these confessions? There seems to be this idea that those books, among others, embody the essential goodness of the genre. I sincerely love Fantasy but I have no interest in these books. They’re great reads and their authors have incredible imaginations. They have definitely opened doors for unexpected heroes, sex and love among dragons and series that grow with readers. But at the end of the day, no mater how much I respect and admire them as fiction, those books were not written for me.
And, as a little black girl hungry for everything from Pokemon to Xena to Dragonheart, I was always left empty and feeling forgotten.  I didn’t understand why Kendra Young’s brief stint on Buffy excited me so much. And later, I didn’t know why The Haitian on Heroes upset me so much.
Black people in Sci-Fi/Fantasy are rare. We are unicorns. I know you can name quite a few, Uhura on Star Trek (who was basically a black secretary), Abe Ellis and Aiden Ford from Stargate Atlantis, Zoe Washburne from Firefly—I’m sure you can name a person for all your fingers and toes. But the number is low—and never will the list of Black protagonists equal the list White protagonists. It just doesn’t happen. And why is that?
 
Even his visor couldn't help him see diversity.
Because we value straight hair and pale skin and light eyes, white is the default race. And in that way, among many, we are still living in a racist society. If you Google Image search “Pretty Women” or “Beautiful Women”, your results are going to yield you women with all these aforementioned qualities. If you see a Black woman, it is going to be Halle Berry. And these women are beautiful, no doubt, but they are dominating the idea of beautiful and the idea of normal.
As I said before, I love Fantasy but I don’t love it because of Elves and Knights and Damsels in Distress. And maybe, when you think about it, neither do you. I love Fantasy for the heroes who overcome incredible odds, for the creatures good and evil, for the weird worlds that people have explored. I love Fantasy because the genre allows for absolutely any outcome and possibility. Anything you can think of can happen in a Fantasy book. Why, then, is it so impossible to find a Black Main Character? Consider this: How deeply would your favorite Fantasy book change if the MC were four shades darker? The answer should be “not at all”.
My last confession is that my Blackness means a lot to me. I held myself responsible for representing Black History Month in my all-white high school, I was an activist on my college campus and even now, as I write, I make it a point to create Black Characters. Even with this being true, however, I don’t think every story with a Black MC has to center around that person’s race. In fact, we would do a better job of normalizing Blackness if that wasn’t the case.
 POC in Fantasy - this could be us but y'all playin'

I mean, re-imagine Lee Jordan (the Quidditch Sports Commentator in Harry Potter) and Padma and Parvati at his side instead of the iconic Harry, Ron and Hermione trio. They can keep their personalities, specialties and histories BUT they would look different. The story itself has not changed. It has all that awesome magical deliciousness but also appeals to the little brown children out in the world (just like I was and so many of my friends were), who wish they could find more book characters who looked like them, characters who were not co-stars or supporting roles.
I’m aware some things WILL have to change, because the Black experience is nothing without a little mention of prejudice, injustice or some sort of discomfort caused by race relations in the world. But that injustice doesn’t have to be the main plot point.
 No one is going to write a Black MC like BlackAuthors. If we don’t write these stories, black literature will fall into two categories: Literary Fiction and Hood Fiction. I will admit, I can’t stand “Hood Fiction”. Maybe I despise the truth it brings to light—that we have brothers and sisters whose day jobs revolve around drug dealing, prostitution and dysfunctional relationships. LA Banks managed to combine Urban Fantasy and Hood Lit in a way that wouldn’t infuriate me if someone found the book 200 years from now and tried to use it as a tool to understand today’s “Black Culture”. Yes, the dialogue was littered with unbelievable slang and the MCs were a Spoken Word Poetry group—but the main protagonist was also a Vampire Hunter. Despite how I may feel about the final project, Sister Banks broke down a genre wall. 

 
Octavia Butler’s MC from Fledgling is Shori, an eleven year old Black girl who falls in love with a 20-something White man in segregated US History. But Shori is a Vampire. Suddenly, what was almost Literary Fiction is Science Fiction. The wall is broken.
If Speculative Fiction is about daring to dream up a world where anything can happen, writing Speculative Fiction with Black narratives means you are daring to dream up a world where no one is surprised or disgusted that a book character is Black, because White will no longer be our default race. And now is the time; people are ready to geek out. Fantasy and Sci-fi themed shows dominate the television and these sorts of books are flying off the shelves. Black Authors can help normalize the Black Main Character. We need to break down the walls.
Don’t worry. I can assure you no one will stop writing White MCs in your absence.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Finish Line

Today, I'll be writing the 19th chapter of my book. That's exciting in itself to some extent but what is most exciting for me is that I haven't stopped.

For the people who know me and read my work, I give up on projects frequently. I fail to outline and get stuck. I lose my momentum and stop. I realize the characters suck or the plot is derivative and I toss the manuscript.

But not this time. This time I see the finish line in sight and I'm headed straight toward it.

This is Usain Bolt. I am the him of writing.

I've been averaging about 10k words a month and it feels really good. But what is different this time around?

Well for one thing, I had a clear goal in mind when I began this project: Stomp the Fantasy Stereotypes. 

That goal allowed me to write a detailed outline starting first with the races of the world and then the history and finally places. Most of the outline won't go in the story but at least the place was real and different to me. Then I picked an interaction between two races to create my plot:  The Synn kidnap human women to use as surrogates. And HoSG was born.


It happened just like this, pretty much.

Now, I'm almost 3/4ths of the way finished. I'm not meeting the deadline I aimed for, which was last week, because I grossly underestimated the work that goes into producing something good. (I'll admit my other projects had huge flaws in them that I was too blinded (by the love of the game) to notice).

But I still count this as progress because I haven't stopped. I have no intention of stopping because the book hasn't given me a reason to stop. There is no lag. For once in my life there is no lag.

My high school art teacher once told me the middle of the painting is the hardest. She wasn't lying. I cried into my oil paint. Painting isn't my strong suit, granted, but the same goes for writing. The middle of the book is the worst for me. But I got through it this time and suddenly the end is completely in sight. Here's some more Usain for y'all.

 Prancing right over that muh fucker!
This moment came after tons of bad projects, some completed, some not. This came after over 100 query letter submissions, some acknowledged most not. This came after two full manuscript requests, none accepted.

And every failure has led to some sort of improvement. Improvement is progress. Progress gets you to the finish line.

Monday, January 20, 2014

Be a Better Beta


Everyone should Beta.

I mean this whether you are a writer or just a lover of stories--but I especially mean this for writers. I know what some of you are thinking.

I don't wanna!

 You work a full time job. 
You're writing your own book.
You have kids.
You have a reading list of already-published work.
You don't feel like you can properly critique work.

Get over it.

The bottom line is that Beta reading is an integral part of trying to get published. In my experience my manuscript drafts have become perhaps 3 times better after I get a few extra eyes on the project. This isn't just about correcting a comma to a semi-colon, this is a chance to see which characters speak to the average person, which people they hate or love, who comes alive and who falls flat.

This is a chance to see if your plot is moving slowly or too fast. Do your MCs have chemistry, is the love interest boring or over-sexualized?

Editing is hard, all of you know it. Here is a chance for you to dump all 500 pages of your Epic Fantasy Novel on someone else's hands. Someone who finds the story fresh, and exciting and doesn't know a thing about the other four drafts where your MC had too many apostrophes in his first name. 
You just get to be like: 

Here, Slave.  Read it! Every last bit!
 And people want to do this for you.

If you have a good group of friends and family, they have been dying to read your work. If you are smart, you've kept your draft a secret and now your adoring fans are thirsty for a drink of your amazing words! Even if no one you know has a degree in literature or writing and can't give you "educated" feed back on plot development and character they can tell you what they liked and disliked.

Every opinion counts. 

Which is why you should share yours. Reading is important to being a good writer. I think solidarity is just as amazing. What if your friends book is an amazing story that is years before it's time? What if it's an Urban Fantasy book that agents find too "preachy" and never pick up? But if what reading it inspires your own work, your next blog post, your next tweet, even? You can't miss out on the opportunity to review a fellow writer's work.

One day, (hopefully) you could be asked to do it for a big name. Your comment could end up on a book cover. How can you make sure your feedback is useful? Here's a handy list:
  • Read the Book Twice
    • Your first time combing through it will be riddled with names, places, rough plot. Only on the second go will you be acclimated with the characters and able to give something meaningful 
  • Learn to Use an Editing Program
    • "Review" in MS word is a godsend. It lets you make side comments, it highlights your corrections and all your analyses will be in different colored text. It then allows the owner of the document to accept or deny a change. Google docs does the same
  •  Be Honest
    • First time I had a beta reader it came from a stranger I met on Absolute Write Water Cooler. She got an agent last year. She's a very good writer. She SHAT ALL OVER MY WORK. I deserved it. It was a bad draft and I never thanked her for her honesty and break down. I wasn't ready for that kind of hurt. But she was a good Beta because she wasn't concerned about my feelings--she told me exactly what she thought of my book and what would make it a better project
  • Be Objective
    • It can be hard being a Beta for a friend. We are excited about their project and genuinely think its good. But consider the book as a stand-alone-project because the truth is, that is what it is. Authors don't end up being super celebrities most of the time. Usually their book is on a shelf and no one really knows what they look like walking down a street. So if the book wasn't any good, we wouldn't care about them. Learn to consider the book as a book and not an extension of someone you love.
  • Find Something Negative to Say
    • Feel free to disagree with me on this but I do think it's a good exercise to challenge yourself to come up with something negative. If you read through an MS and can't find a single thing you disliked--even if you admit it's completely your opinion, then you are not doing a good job. You need to give the writer everything and can decide what advice to discard. I think it's impossible to involve yourself in critical thinking without coming up with one critique.
Even if you only Beta for one project in your decades of writing, do it anyway. You will benefit from it in some way, even if it's just doing a good deed for someone else. You never know, you could be getting a sneakpeak at something amazing.


And it will look exactly like this.

Friday, January 3, 2014

My First Author Interview!


Since September of 2013 I've really been making a game plan to get my shit together. That meant:
  • Outlining a novel and committing to finish it
    • This meant publicizing it! I feel like I, personally, can't back out of something if everyone knows I'm doing it. 
  • Reading more
  • Connecting with other writers
  • Editing for other writers
  • Attending events and conference
  • Writing every single day 
  • Try to get some short stories published
  • Take a Gotham Writer's Workshop
  • Apply for Fellowship
That last one is particularly difficult. Sometimes, you want to come home and relax.


That feeling when you take off your bra after a long day at work
However, since making this commitment, I've averaged about 10k words a month. I need to speed it up a little to be done by February--but I'm still impressed with myself. Especially since I think my writing for this project really isn't too bad!
  I booked my ticket for AWP (Association of Writers and Writer's Program) and attended an event at the Brooklyn Historical Society, that spoke about race and speculative fiction! It's been a fun ride and so far my hard work has culminated in the following:


Needless to say, I'm feeling pretty good! And this young lady inspired me to come up with a list of 
Writing Goals for 2014

  •  Finish the Novel
  • Attend three more writing events outside of AWP
  • Query 20+ agents (I tend to under-query and give up)
  • Write and Submit 3 short stories
  • Outline and begin draft of next project
  • Read 10 books
  • Tweet one new writer a day (I've met some great people this way)
  • Publicize this blog
  • Edit for someone in my genre
This is going to be such a good year--it's already off to a fantastic start! That isn't to underestimate that the publishing industry isn't terrifying and difficult. It's basically a war. I'm ready though.
So. Fucking. Ready


Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Eureka: The Artist and the Lightbulb

A friend of mine just had her "moment".

You know what "The Moment" is. It can happen at work, in bed, in the shower, even while walking down the street. It's kind of like catching the holy ghost.

You just wait til they start hikin' up their skirts and stompin the floor!

"The Moment" is when someone--be they artist or arithmetician--realizes their calling and cannot ignore it any longer. My friend is an excellent writer. We share a common struggle called "Shit Happens". Shit Happens is exactly what it sounds like. It's your dog dying, your wife divorcing you, your boyfriend leaving you, your girlfriend throwing away your favorite worn out Converse sneakers. Shit Happens is anything and everything that will offer you an excuse to not do your work. I don't mean to seem unsympathetic, I AM unsympathetic. I am looking at the "old me", or really just regular me a few months prior--and about 40k words less, mind you--who was making excuses for herself. She had real problems; she was jobless, her relationship of 3 years seemed like it was failing, she was losing friends left and right and couldn't understand why.... And she let those very real and very depressing things distract her.

In truth, there are no excuses. If you are upset, write and distract yourself. If you are in a hurry, write on napkins or in the note app on your cell phone. If you need to clean the house and can't sit down and type, use dictation software. There is no valid excuse unless you say so. There is no teacher to chide your absence, no boss to deny your vacation days. If you are not writing there is no one to blame but yourself. 

You have to realize that before hand, because that takes up space and "The Moment" needs room to move through!

I imagine "The Moment" is a big diva who doesn't need to make herself known. When she arrives, you KNOW
I wish I could remember my exact moment. I thought it happened in February of 2013, almost a year ago. I quite my real estate job because I hated it and, by that point, all I did was rush through my work so I could write my novel in Google Docs. I quit, completely unprepared, convinced I was going to start, finish and submit the novel that would get me a deal. 

In September of 2013, I got a new job.

I had to admit that I half-assed it. And furthermore, I had a tumultuous summer--which I know now is irrelevant to my work but I didn't know that then and I let it stop me completely. Suddenly after I started my new job, I got this wave of invigoration. I started to write every day. I made plans for events and conferences. I started to read more. I submitted and applied to fellowships. I am averaging about 10k words a month and my draft will be finished in January. 

Ever since I had my "moment", I haven't had writer's block for more than a couple days and I've been active about fixing it, instead of hoping it will go away. Since I've had my "Moment", people have been telling me how inspired they are by me and how they wish they could be as motivated. I'm inclined to say that all they have to do is stop "wanting" and "wishing" and just do it. The roughest part of writing the book is sitting down to write. Once the fingers move on the keyboard and the words start flowing, you never want to leave. 

But I could be wrong. It might not be that easy. If you want to induce your moment--yes, like pregnancy--read The War Of Art. It's a good kick-in-the-pants and a quick read. The bottom line is, there is no reason you're not living your dream right now. JK Rowling was on welfare when she wrote Harry Potter--and she did it by choice because she's just more of a G than you are.

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Write that book. It really won't write itself.